[HOME] [ISSUE] [ARCHIVES] [ABOUT] [GUIDELINES] [BLOG] Palettesby Shweta Narayan1. My mother speaks her love in quilts and stained glass; in facets - which orange for the border do you think, paneer goes well with mint, you're far too young to be tired all the - bright wedges. My watercolor words pool translucent, stark: just can't breathe, might be -- pain into green into grey too dark a story. Her brother died last year. Mine doesn't sleep. I wish in worried layers, fading as they dry. I wash out palettes gone to mud, shut messy dreams in drawers, echo her patchwork precision: send their love you sound well. I send orange and purple paintings: one-tusk trunk-curled prayers for my breath or for hers. I don't send stories. 2. We are amethyst and mauve, mismatched -- too close. We mix, clay and water, into mud. Why don't you write happy stories? Because they're not true. Because I sleepless crossed the ice field with no shadows and I have no other words. her tears glittered, that once - not fair, such pain, he never hurt anyone, your aunt is shattered. So am I, she meant. I held her, frightened to find her frail.) She says that's why we need color. 3. We dream in glass and water layers, translucent. She shows me rooms where palettes line the walls, breathless with batik; lapis and olive bright as sari patches; for a peacock, she tells wide eyes or I do. We piece together color contrasts, overlapping stories gem-tones eddying sharp-edged. I dream to her in cotton and stained glass, paint wings edged with fresh-ground turmeric. She feathers in cinnamon, turns -- winged, spice-fingered, graceful in batik, caught fast between possible and perfect. She frowning says this will be difficult I'm not sure where to start. I mix mint and paneer into leaf-tones and tell her yes we'll make mistakes and pick them out and patch it together Mama. Shweta Narayan was smelted in India's summer, quenched in the monsoon, wound up on words in Malaysia, and pointed westwards. She surfaced in Saudi Arabia, The Netherlands, and Scotland before settling in California, where she lives on language, veggie tacos, and the internet. The quilt she and her mother are making is Officially In Progress. Her poetry has recently appeared or is forthcoming in places like Goblin Fruit, Mythic Delirium, and Jabberwocky. She was the Octavia E. Butler Memorial Scholarship recipient at the 2007 Clarion workshop. Shweta can be found on the web at shwetanarayan.org. Photography: adapted from Peacock window, Bhaktapur, by Dey Alexander. |